SO, there is something you should know about me... I am a little bit of a rebel [not too much to really get in trouble}. When someone tells me to do something. I want to do the complete opposite. So when the idea of having a word of the year came around... I couldn't just pick ONE word... I had to be a little rebellious.
My word of the year is:
Yep- 2 words! :) But it is one idea so I am going to count it and I hope you do too! I have some ugly parts of me that I need to get rid of. Here are a few ugly things I need to LET GO of this year:
I have a strong sense of fairness. If something is not fair for me or my kids, I get angry and that anger turns to bitterness.
Bitterness eats away at me and I cannot get past it.
To help me let it go, I am going to say this verse when I start to feel the bitterness come on "Proverbs 10:12 Hatred stirs up conflict, but love covers over all wrongs." Out-loud if possible. There is power in God's word and I am going to use it!
I am controlling. Not in the clean-freak, organizing way (I wish I was more like that!), but in a "let me tell you what to do" sort of way. I like to have things go my way. I am a decisive person, and most times I am right {ok- all the time, I am right!} It can drive me crazy if someone does not do something the same way that I would have.
Control...I want total control. It is just not possible.
I don't need to get worked up over other peoples decisions! When I get the urge to control a situation I am going to say to myself "I am not them, they are not me... I am not going to think about it" {there is going to be a lot of self talk this year!}
Judgment just piggy-backs off of my controlling nature. It is so easy for me to jump to judgement when someone chooses a different path than me.
I have always tried to keep this part of me in check, it is the main reason I am not on facebook {Jeannine runs our F&J facebook page}. All those FB statuses to judge...Oh, I could be all kinds of ugly on Facebook. {I am not against FB... it is just not right for me}
Another step to help me out is to have this verse memorized: Luke 6:37 Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. I think the world would be a much better place if we forgave instead of judged.
I have a creative mind. It is great when I am working on crafts during the day... but it is a bit scary at night. My mind races to all sorts of horrible things to worry about and fear. I have some major anxiety at times. To the point of paralyzing panic attacks. I worry about my kids, my husband, my life.
I am letting go of caffeine this year. It is a trigger to my anxiety, so it is going bye-bye. I have been off caffeine for about a month and I don't miss it that much!
I have to repeat outloud what I know about my God.
My God is BIG
My God loves me
My God WILL take care of me and my family.
My God conquered death
My God is in Control (not me!)
My God is WITH ME- all the time
My God knows what is best.
So this year I am going to "Let go and Let God"!
Yep- totally cheesy and cliche but I had to say it because it is true!
What is your word of the year? Leave me a note or a link in my comments!